Monday, March 28, 2011

You have been Remade

There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?

Yeah don't you know who you are?
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

2 Corinthians 5:17 What this means is that those who become Christians become new persons.They are not the same anymore, for the old life is gone. A new life has begun.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight

But don't you know who's you are?
Jeremiah 1:5 " I knew you before I(The Lord Almighty God) formed you in your mother's Womb....

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

Isaiah 1:18 "come now, let us argue this out," Says the Lord. "No matter how deep the stain of your sins, I can remove it. I can make you as clean as freshly fallen snow. Even if you are stained as red as crimson. I can make you as white as wool."

Friday, March 25, 2011

Don't Quit

This week I have put my Story down on Paper and sent it out to 5 of the most wisest Women I know. I am wanting to take the best parts of my Testimony and perfect it for these Young girls. I never want Glorify my terrible choices I have made, but I do want to show the Miracles God can do in there life if they just turn it all over to Him. It doesn't matter how away you are from God he is just a prayer away from you. As I was reliving some of the things I remember getting clean off Meth and half way through the most terrible week of detoxing. I wanted to Quit, but God had other plans for me. Jana Ray from the Local Church in Kirby Ar brought me a Journal and a bottle of lotion (the lotion has no meaning other than i can still smell the scent sometimes) But the Journal said:

Don't quit when the tide is lowest,
For it's just about to turn;
Don't quit over doubts and questions,
For there's something you may learn.

Don't quit when the night is darkest,
For it's just a while 'till dawn;
Don't quit when your've run the farthest,
For the race is almost won.

Don't quit when the hill is steepest,
For your goal is almost nigh;
Don't quit, for you're not a failure
Until you fail to try.
-Jill Wolf

So when I read this there was no way I was about to quit because I knew things were going to get better if I just kept pressing through. As History shows itself, Things most surely got better after that week but there were many times I got to the quitting mark, but something keep driving me in the right direction, Now looking back Gods hand was all over my life for a year and half after I got clean, he was drawing to my salvation moment when I surrendered it ALL over to Him and never looked back...

If he is drawing you to him I promise you won't regret following His direction for your life.

Monday, March 21, 2011

The Introduction!!!

I was 23 when my life changed so dramatically. I got saved and started studying the word of God and had a call on my life to share the truth with girls who have a colorful past like mine. So for 6 years I had no clue what it was going to look like. For the last 2 years I have just waited on Him to show me what the next step was. At His perfect timing, God gave me the exact direction to go in on Feb. 18th 2011. Conferences for young girls in small towns all around. So in one month God has opened up doors that I never even could have imagined. Looking like the first Event will be in September, and will consist of a Fashion Show, Hip hop routine, skit, worship music, My Story, and then afterwards turn it in to one big Dance party with a DJ, Juice bar, and LOTS OF FUN!!! My one purpose in this Event for small town youth girls is to show them that just because you are a Christian you do not have to be boring and lose your uniqueness. It's quite the opposite. You can have more confidence in yourself to embrace who you are because you will have an understanding that God created you to be you...